March 3 2010

Haven't slept all night. I have decided I am going to try to keep a daily journal in order to gather my thoughts. Maybe this will help me get on track and get my life together.

The kids and I went to Zach's baseball practice tonight I had fun watching him play and giving him pointers. Pushed Toby on the swing for awhile and that was fun too. Toby fell down and hurt his knee and some point and was crying hysterically it wasn't bad he just wanted attention. I worry that he is too immature for his age sometimes.

We went to Ron's for dinner and had a nice meal. The kids refused to try cheese fries with bacon because they were "gross". I had to eat them all oh well so much for getting fit. Watched Kung Fu Panda with the kids and ML and we all laughed really hard. That and Horton Hears A Who are the two best kids movies ever made.

I think it's important that I work out from now on. I am going to try to basketball every week and do something else during the week to keep fit mentally and physically.

March 2 2010

Haven't done anything today. Still wasting time with my life I need to get going get off my butt but I don't have any ambition left. Baseball is getting ready to start and I am excited about that. I am angry with Aun even though I shouldn't expect anything from her. It upsets me when I find out other people are talking about me. People that I thought were my friend talking shit on me. I have always tried to be a good friend and yes maybe I'm not very social sometimes but I am loyal to my friends.

I get the kids today that should be fun no more basketball practice. I had a great time coaching basketball this year and was proud of both the kids. I think Toby is getting better with his is attitude. I miss them both a lot. Because I see them so little its hard to be a good father and let them have fun at the same time.